Stranger....wish we never MET!!!!!

You found me.....i said 'hi'...that was all we never spoke but just a smile. Months and months later i thought i should drop in to you and see how my stranger is doing.....we spoke and this time it was more than just a 'hi' and a smile, it was cool!! More than just the 'how are you'' and 'how was your day'.....we started to learn each of our own side's story not realizing the closeness that we were buliding up. Now i'm confused as hell and i'll never figure it out because you've taken my heart away!!! It wasn't me....its your fault...you made me fall for you:(!!! You say you love me but im scared bout the word!!!!!!!! I'm strong,im jaded,im stubborn but i break.......and i wish so much the 'poles end' feeling that im going through! I get scared and i feel like a mess....."hey stranger do you feel the way i do??".

I know you but it aint what i really want to know about......but all i want to know is the real person behind that mask!!! They asked me what am i doing with you...why am i walking on the road that has no horizon.....but i didnt listen because i wanted to give a try......i wanted to make the road beautiful and maybe create a sunny horizon at the end....but i guess i planned way too much...living on my useless imaginations again!!!

So many things i've learnt from you.......a part of me is glad that i said 'hello' to you....a part of me regrets!!! I'm sorry stranger but i think i'll have to go now....one day we will meet again..and maybe than i'll be able to explain to you...every little bit about why i had to do this! I'm not proud, i'm not strong...i'm not weak,im not lost......im just a silly someone!! Thank you is all i can say to you......"Stranger....i wish we never met cos its so hard for me now to take my heart back from you!!"

When Love dont Fall on My side:S!!!

Okayyy...its valentines day again:S....not really the day....deas still two hours left to go for it to be "D-Day"!! Nyways dosent matter to me.....just another normal day for me...(sad)..lol!

Its kinda weird though that i still dont have a boyfriend.....well i Never..... and i dont kno why... i still dont understand!!! But sometimes i guess its all for the best for me....maybe God has something special planned for me..someone special( wherever u are)..hmmmmm...lol!

As the lovers celebrate their lovee....Im going to clebrate singles day wid all my single frens:d.....

go to kfc..order the same old meal hahhaha.....or maybe do some shopping:))!

Nyways...Cheers to all you Lovers.....Cheers to myself for being single even when im already 21:D.........God Bless!!

Happy Valentines day!! :))

StEaL mY SunShInE!!!!

"Summer has already kissed me with its first sunrays,

sipping coffee in the cafeteria....i watch pretty birds sit by the window,

feels like they are telling me not to worry,

that its alright to feel like nothing's going right...

because even God feels that way too.

Lonely and tired even though there's many friends around,

lying on the green grass...you stare at the blue sky,

'relax' ...a silent voice whispers in your ear,

its okay to feel afraid sometimes,

God knows each step that you take.

Seasons change....so does everything including you and i,

You show you are strong by hiding that agony behind,

but than why do you cry yourself to sleep at night?

dont you ever think that your all alone...

God cares for every soul that cries.

Sweet summer wind blow through the open window,

singing to me to leave tomorrow's cares alone....

run out and enjoy the present joys....

nothing will steal my sunshine......

even when summer leaves....God's sunshine will always be upon you!!

Beginning from the End!!

"Maybe you're at the point of not wanting to go.

Coming to the end of yourself emotionally...

could be the most painful experience you've ever encountered.

Don't give up but take courage...it'll all be alrite very soon.

Even when you are obedient to the Lord...you are put to test.

You wonder how a believer could feel so alone and forsaken,

being a child of God intensifies your desperation.

The skies of adverity may not clear immediately...

but have Faith his grace will sustain you,

for a christian,wholeness always comes after brokenness.

The best things that come to us are by letting God have his way,

all the tests and trials are way's of God showing his undying love for you.

Cling to the Lord in faith..God can use this kind of "beginning from the end"!

Though you're broken still smile and sing along.....

Sometime ...sometime we'll understand!!.....

A note to God!

"Hey Lord,

I wish i knew how to start this......i dont know if i should question you or should i ask you 'please Lord'...or should i say thank you or should i cry 'why lord'!!!!

You've known me all of my life.......you've watched over me even ever since i was in my mother's womb! Im 21 still i wish i knew you more than i do now.......!!! You've blessed me with so many unseen blessings.....blessings that i cant even count.....made me see and live the bitter truth of life! But there have been times when you took me really down.....i know that was just a test you were putting me through to see my faith and i know i havnt let u down!

But lord there are times like this when i cant help aking you why do u put me through all these moments. There are many people who dont know you....people who dont even care to say "you are God"...yet you make them live life like its heaven here. While you make your children cry...make them run through these hurdles..."why lord..why??"!!!!!

Yo've brought us this far.....i dont know your plans but i know you've got a big good plan for me and all your other children...you kno who im talkin about. Please Lord bless them more than you bless me. Dont let them fall as much as i do....carry them swiftly...."HELP" them....they need you!!!

This is all i want from you....this is all i ask from you..please Lord!!

Im sorry if ive said anything to offend you.....i hope you understand me :(!!!"

with love,

ure child :)