Happy Birthday amu:).
Can't believe you've turned 26 today....you would have been a big man today - my brother who bullied me a "big man" :D!! Been so many years now since we last celebrated your birthday together. I remember the last was when you turned 16, i was more excited than you haha. Who knew that, that would be your last birthday with us. I still have the cards that our cousins gave you, you couldn't take them with you. Sixteen years you had, and i was lucky to have spent twelve years with you, how selfish God was,he didnt let me have you for more than that :(!
Your birthday reminds me of our days, our beautiful life we had in the sunshine. I miss them so much every bit of it, nobody knows how much i miss you:( ! i wonder how you would have looked today,all grown up. I know you would have been so handsome, your ever wicked smile that made all the girls go "ooh" for you back in school days, wonder how much effect that smile would have cost now haha. And i think you would have been the tallest in our family, and maybe you would be matured enough to not bully me anymore:)!
We miss you everyday!! Daddy dosen't tell but we all know how much he misses you. He always clears up your old trunk and keep your clothes folded and neat, if only you could come back. Mommy misses you soooo muchhh, you know how mommy is, you shouldn't have left so soon. She even cried today because its your birthday but you arent here with us. Only the good Lord knows this heartache. Big brother's so lonely without you,his bestfriend and his brother.
Life seems so unfair sometimes, empty spaces of you fill our hearts....where did you go? wish i could speak to you, have a talk and maybe laugh at our silly life. Our memories now locked in my heart, i open to see them to be sure that i haven't lost it, ive lost you and this is all i have of you. As i sit here on the rooftop and write to you, i know you're watching over me, but i can't see you nor can i speak to you, life's so cruel!
I guess this is all i have to write to you today, have a beautiful Birthday with everyone up there, but know that im thinking of you. I can't wait for the day when ill be there with you...i know it aint very long from now.
My regards to grandpa, uncle and my cousin brothers....tell them i miss them too always and they're always in my heart.
I miss you so much amu.....i love you.
your sister forever,
me:)
