Wishing fLOWER!

I MISS YOU..... dats all =)

Hatsukoi!

So here i go with everything on my head again,

no second guessing and no more waiting,

This is where we meet and this where we say goodbye.

you've been so good to me, been patient enough,

and you've loved me enough,ill never forget,

its just sad we couldn't make things workout.

But yeah we were meant to say goodbye,

even if it wasn't today someday we would have,

so take heart we'r just making things easier!

I love you so much but sweetheart,i think you've hurt me enough now,

and time will take me along untill i realize you're my yesterday.

This ride was sweet with you and its sad my road is different now,

maybe we'll meet again in the other bend down the lane,

lets see what happens then,lets see where we'll be standing.

Its time now, lets hug for the last time!

I cry!

Do you know how it feels like to love somebody,
but somebody's ashamed to call you theirs.
Do you know how much that feeling hurts,
it makes you take a heavy breath, leaving you an empty space in your heart.
Have you ever faked that happiness to make somebody smile because they need you,
even though your all broken up inside.
Do you know how it feels to push yourself everyday,
telling yourself everything will turn out alright, even though nothings seems to be getting right.
What do you do when all the promises made to you were jus false lies,
everything remains to be a dream, dreams thats never going to come true.
Down this line, i think im already ready with my decisions,i don't know where its going to lead me to, but yeah im prepared for the consequences.
I've been so confused out of my mind; i swear i never had felt this way before,
Keeping you as mine,who knew that it would be this tough.
Im not sure what i should do next, all these times we had together,
seems like we never really had it, like we never started.
You're so far away, you dont see me and you don't feel me,
i'm just trying to mend us everyday, for your sake,for my sake ,for our sake!
Dark clouds are surrounding me, its gonna rain soon,
i think i should just go to sleep and pretend again like everythings right.
I see a light shining far down the road, somewhere in time,
a lonely light to lead me on!
I'm strong, i have faith.......please don't let me down!

Untamed Nights!

Coming back to these fall, can't run anywhere , can't hold up these feeling anymore.

So you lie down all alone up in the roof, watch in silence at the starry night,

Cars honking at the distant highway, you cry yourself out to the wind!

Nobody knows where you are, nobody knows how broken you feel,

put up that smile, fake those laughters,you achieve in pretending evrythings right.

God knows how much you wish, God only knows your eyes can't hold those tears anymore.

So is this it? you question to the sky above, because you know someone's up there.

In a sudden rush you find yourself wading into the memoirs of an hour back,

memoirs of yesterday,memoirs of last year, memoirs of when you were thirteen,

memoirs you want to forget but it only haunts you back like a movie scene being replayed.

Heartaches,pains,hurts,regrets all peirces you at de same moment,

Life is as hard as it gets, u comfort yourself, what's the point no one's going to understand you.

So u stand back to your feet again, remove that tear stains on your face,

your eyes will tell them but who cares,i dont care at all,

im a human, i need to cry too, let my pain out and make myself feel better!

This is just another night ,ill sleep and wake up to a new day,i know ill be alright,

but sometimes it just gets really hard to pass this kind of nights!