Friday, March 20, 2009

Tiny Little fractures!!



There are somethings i want to write...every word i try my best,
to think of something that would help me express the things i think,
i could be stuck here for a thousand years cos the perfect words never cross my mind!!
Nobody knows me behind these walls standing before me......
i may pretend like im sleeping when my tears start to fall,
you'll never know what you are doing to me,
you made me happier than i'd ever been,
but tonight you did it again, i lost the game with you not again!
Nobody knows the rythmn that my heart plays,
its just me and the walls lying here in the dark,
you're there so far away, and you'll never know what you do to me,
these little fractures you pinch in me, they're small but it hurts more.
Someone had told me to throw the words you promised me,
but i did not, i instead fought and defended you, me and us,
cos i thought they were all wrong and just jealous.
But oh, i was just too convinced and so lost in my coolness,
and now i cant even raise my voice, trying hard to create a new sunshine!
I'm always there and i've always been there for you,
but you never noticed me,you took evrything for granted,
So when tomorrow comes,don't be surprised if you dont find me here.
To think i may never see you ever again, pains my heart,
but all i want is for us to find a easier way own our own,
and i hope you'll remember me sometimes, maybe when the spring rain comes.
I'll make it through,i don't know how,but in the morning i know i'll be fine,
There's nothing you can do, nothing we can change,
i hope you realize now how it hurts to lose someone you had,
someone you never saw standing by your side untill its GONE!






Friday, March 13, 2009

Letter for Whom "RACISM"...is da six most hated word!!!

To,

You!!

Your mean..You were so mean...nothing new about it!! Always critical..always passing comment at me and all of us with these small eyes!! And its not just you...there are many others like you who are like you, who dosent wish to take me or even try to wish to respect me as one of you, as your fellow friend and fellow citizen!!! What can i do if God made me this way, it wasn't some kind of a joke that he played while he was creating ME!!!.

You and i ,you say and think we are different, but i wish so much more that you would realize that what you think is a fool's thinking! We belong to the same Creator if u have forgotten.... he made us different because things look pretty around when you have different varities! We live in the same country, same continent,same planet ,just that we dont live in the same house or that you aint my neighbour. But you...YES YOU----> you are so dumbishly-stupididly-idiotically-ignorantly lost in your own thinkings and perceptions that you dont want to even care to take a look at me as you see yourself in the mirrorven for a fraction of second!!

You make a Big Full NEWS if someone talk about you and your colour or even to those who look like you. You call them "Racist"....you bad mouth them---slash them---strike--pinch--throttle--kill them with your words(if only words could kill:(!)...but hey wait a minute ma'am's and sir's... before you even shout back your annoying-heart killing comments dont you even try to listen to the distant bell ringing and singing "what about you--->YOURSELF"??? How far do you think you are standing from those people whom your trying to slash off for calling you names-- the "racist" thingy!!!!!! Aren't you one of them.......you laugh at me....you call me "chinky-minke"....you dislike me even when you don't know a single shit about me but just my name(I don't even know you too...), you make that face..that very weird face when i pass by....man you look like a joker trying to screw his face.....ill remember to remind you next time you do that again..! All your attention is towards them because they look like you and they talk like you...you judge me just by my outer appearance and you think I'm bad because there are many people who looks like me are bad..but there are people who looks like you who are more worse than people who looks like me!....Your full of drama....your always masked and blinded... sometimes i feel sorry for you!

If i could i could also be as mean as you are to me........i could also try my best to slash-strike-throttle and kill you with my words but i ain't so barbaric or uncultured or heartless or inhuman to be so unkind!!! God has given me a heart , a small heart to love and i want it to grow big and not let it disappear!!!You hate me..please do its alright..tell it to me...just don't go on stabbing me with your words from behind...or from the corners...!!!!! I'm your sister-I'm your brother- I'm the image you see when you stand before the mirror...I'm a part of your family that God has made us to be...its just that i don't look like you....i don't live with you...and you are not my neighbour too!!!!!!! I wish so much and pray that you'll soon realize what I'm wishing for you, a heart to love and respect and accept, to care and understand and realize, a mind of wisdom and a brighter light that can make you see the depth of the hurt that you stab on me with your very unkind words!!

Hey you, i hope you understand a little bit of what i mean to tell you, its alright...i know nothing can change overnight but i wish and pray that you'll change in some years time atleast for the sake of our children who are to come someday after 10 years!!!

God Bless your heart........i mean all Peace to you!

Waiting for a change to come,

your small eyed,

sister-brother-friend-Neighbour