water in the bottle :D

Dear God,
Happy easter week:)!
last week had been really good to me. i had a wonderful trip, u kept me in safe hands and well in between something little went wrong, some hours of heartbrokeness but you solved it all so THANK YOU:D!!!
I want to say thank u today for all de blessings in my life. My family and relatives, my grandma , my friends, my life and Daryl! Thank you Jesus, ure de awesomest of all!
i miss home at the moment i wish i could spend this holy week with my family, but anyways yeah, keep them in safe hands:)!
I love Jesus evry single day.....i love you so much! Im so proud to be your child
and i will always lift your name on high!
You rock!
I love you,
me :)

When all is said and done - ABBA

Heres to us one more toast and then well pay the bill
Deep inside both of us can feel the autumn chill
Birds of passage, you and me
We fly instinctively
When the summers over and the dark clouds hide the sun
Neither you nor Im to blame when all is said and done

In our lives we have walked some strange and lonely treks
Slightly worn but dignified and not too old for sex
Were still striving for the sky
No taste for humble pie
Thanks for all your generous love and thanks for all the fun
Neither you nor Im to blame when all is said and done

Its so strange when you're down and lying on the floor
How you rise, shake your head, get up and ask for more
Clear-headed and open-eyed
With nothing left untried
Standing calmly at the crossroads,no desire to run
There's no hurry any more when all is said and done

Standing calmly at the crossroads,no desire to run
There's no hurry any more when all is said and done

Random 1

Spring exams are over.....and tomorrow we're all leaving for our spring internship for two weeks to Gujurat and the other parts of India! Looking forward but half of me aint much excited anymore like i was the last few weeks. Something's totally wrong with me for the last two weeks ive been feeling pretty unusually low and its such a bad feeling.
Everything's going very normal,im doing alright but my heart just dont feel alright. I got many people around me...people who love me, but deep inside i still feel alone. I can't open up myself to anyone, i try but i just cant seem to... my words get choked inside. Ive been let down by people i never thought would do that, been compared to others whom i cant be, never been appreciated of what i have or what i can do. And still being a girl growing up and trying to live in this world, its hard for me to get ahead when all these thoughts keep knocking on me!! Sometimes i wish they would accept me for who iam, for what im doing and for what im going to be!
All i need is for someone to sit with me and tell me they're here to listen to me, to encourage me atleast for once in my life! I need someone!! its always the same...everynight its just me talkin to God. i wish i had someone here literally to listen to me and not walk away! Everybody wants something out of me....but nobody seems to be there when i need somebody. I have to fake my laughter and my smiles... pretend evrything is super Fine even though nothings really super fine. i hate pretence. They lie to me, they think ill never know but im not a fool...its just not easy when people we love lie and hid the truth from us. That is what i get!
Maybe ill never be good enough for anyone, maybe im just the wrong kind of person for them, maybe ill just be like this forever....Lord will i really olways be like this...lonely???
how i really wish i had someone!God Knows how much i wish i had someone! jesus i need help:(
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Out of the Rolling ocean, the crowd - Walt Whitman

Out of the rolling ocean, the crowd, came a drop gently to me,
Whispering, I love you, before long I die,
I have travel’d a long way, merely to look on you, to touch you,
For I could not die till I once look’d on you,
For I fear’d I might afterward lose you.

Now we have met, we have look’d, we are safe;
Return in peace to the ocean, my love;
I too am part of that ocean, my love—we are not so much separated;
Behold the great rondure—the cohesion of all, how perfect!
But as for me, for you, the irresistible sea is to separate us,
As for an hour, carrying us diverse—yet cannot carry us diverse for ever;
Be not impatient—a little space—Know you, I salute the air, the ocean and the
land,
Every day, at sundown, for your dear sake, my love.


Until I see your face, I will miss you.

Dear God,

How are you today?
im doing pretty ok but not very good, and i know you already know why. Lately the days have been quite tough for me, and i really need you to stay close with me, more than you have,all the other days.
There are these moments when loneliness creeps in me, like the way i feel now, my heart touches the bottom and i feel more than hopeless. Everybody expects from me more than what i can give, how can i Lord??. And that's where i let them down and im blamed for all the things i never did.
There are times when i thought i have someone i could lean on,but its when i realize they're never there and im left all alone to ponder on my fractures. That's when 'Trust' seems to me to be a very far cry word!
Everyone thinks i have it all because,i smile and laugh even at my hardest point, but they dont know that im just trying to make myself feel better, bottle up inside is my saddest heart,but how long,it gets so hard! Im afraid to let someone see my saddest state,i have no one to talk to but only you. You know me and you knew me even before i was born,ever since i was in my mothers womb.
You brought me all along this way,and you made me see the bitter truth of life which many friends of my age havent yet stepped on it. And i thank you for it, beause today i have you as my best friend for without those days, my life today would have been so empty without you.
Lord, im sorry if i had missed out on you, maybe this is the price im paying for. But can you forgive me and stay with me,sit with me and talk to me. Because im lost Lord, and i feel like giving in, but i still hold on because of you. Because i know you still love me and you'll never forsake me, dear God.
I love you so much,all my life i owe to you,
Always and forever your child,
Hugs, me!

Nobody Knows.

Just when you start the end begins,and you pray it won't be too soon,
You say your alright,this is just a dream and you'll wake up someday,
Nobody knows how u feel,nobody knows where your secret place is?
nobody knows where you hide your saddest heart.
You write pages of words, word after every word,
that's the only way you can speak your thoughts hidden inside,
those unspoken words,rain of love,hurt and miracles all into one.
Nobody knows how you feel,nobody know where you run to?
Nobody knows where you hide your saddest heart.
One day i will wake from this grey life dreams,
i don't mind if im sounding weird,this is the only way i can be,
Noobody knows how i feel,nobody knows where my secret place is?
nobody knows where i hide my saddest heart.