walled

Dear God,
i miss you! =(
They dont understand me,they dont wanna sit and listen to my heart but instead they blame me. Is this how my life is suppose to be?? Can't i too have a little love and encouragement?? am i that bad that i dont deserve any??
im blamed for the things i dont understand the reason myself,im made the blacksheep of the family, im made to walk all alone in this big world I feel alone Lord. Sometimes i wish it was me and not my brother you should have chosen=(!!!
broken and lonely,
me!