Ends apart

i miss how we used to be,
when all things seemed so fine and okay.
Everyday we seem to be changing,
everyday we seem to be losing apart.
Maybe this is how it's all suppose to end.

* Make you mine *

How i wonder where would i be standing without you here today,
its amazing how you've turned my life ever since you came to be mine,
i only pray if id make a little difference too.
Waking up to everyday, to know that I've got you,
couldn't make me feel so blessed and lucky then anyone else,
your all i need and your all i want to make mine for always.

Distance keeps us apart through the minutes and hours,
but every passing time brings us closer and closer,
always anticipating for that moment when we'll meet again.
Holding on to every little moment we spent together,
we fall in love even more deeper, strengthening the bond more then ever,
and this feeling couldn't get better.

Its amazing when i look at you, i see my half that make me whole,
a better half always so calm and gentle even if the tides get high,
oh just one thing i can promise, nobody can ever take your place.
Done with everyone around, all those people disapproving us,
but who are they for us to be afraid of, critics are everywhere,
these days will soon be over because we have a better judge right above.

Seasons will come and go and lessons we will keep learning,
we'll have our share of time with every passing day,
but as everyday grows i wanna grow old with you,
to see this life with you by my side.
we'll grow old together, and you'll always be the beautiful story to me.
im so blessed to have you, blessed that i found you in this one life we have,
you are all i need, you're all i want to make mine for always.

The Quiet cry

They blamed her for the broken glass,
remember all the rights she has done wrong,
and everything she does, they find flaws in it.
She loses a call, takes a left turn instead of right,
and there they go, bombarding canon shots from the voices in their head.
Everyday she runs, everyday she hides the lies,
everyday she makes believe she is not broken,
who could tell what lies beneath her, how she could still go on.
Everyday battling till the dawn, she waits for hope,
because she knows the messenger she talks to in silence,
is going to help her win this heart war.
Help me Lord, help me get through this hurdle,
i wait for you patiently, i know you will come to my rescue,
Never forsake me, i feel alone.

" i wait for you, O Lord. you will answer, O Lord my God. For i said , " Do not let them gloat or exalt themselves over me when my foot slips." Psalm 38 : 15-16

Happy Birthday!

Memories of you and me still so clear,
Those yester years never seems to fade.
life's changed since you've been gone,
I still wonder how life would have been,
if you were stil here today.
"You were the best among all,
the most sparkling star in the night sky,
God was scared he'd lose you in this cruel world,
and he was jealous to see me having the best
so he took you away quietly..
and didnt give me a chance to hold you back!"
I miss you today more than i always do.
and i Know the party must be better up there
as the heavens sing in joy for you.
But i rejoice for you too,
for the times ive spent with you.
I thank God for i was blessed to be your sister,
and im blessed i know i have an angel whose always watching over me.
Can't wait for that day when we'll be together again,
doing all the things that we'v missed out for so long!!
Happy birthday Amu, ure missed unconditionally!

Part of me is Leaving.

Whispers have got loud,
the dawn has broken away so soon.
streams are starting to rush,
the rain is turning into hailstorms.
I called them mine, i called them my own,
but they seem to have disowned me.
i cant choose, i cant make choices,
these words are more then hard to swallow,
these words hurt more then hurt could hurt.
to love and to let go, to love and to say goodbye,
to love i said i will love you till forever thats in my heart,
and to love i said even though my love will stay,
but i will have to go, because,
part of me is already leaving.

Drama Queen.

Dressed up all ready for the show but deep inside you still feel so naked.
sitting all alone waiting for your name to be called, just another parade.
Slowly your heart races through, holding back those fears you tremble inside.
How long is this gonna last?how many hours more left for you to rise or fall?
Every second of time peirces you through, every hour you kill yourself.
You smile and walk through the halls, no they cant hear your heart!
you tell yourself your going to be strong, your not going to trip,
everything will be Okay, everything will be okay.
Everyone stares at you, you've gotta stay poised.
Remember you are a drama queen

Mercy!!

I am feeble and utterly crushed,
my heart groans in deep anguish,
my strength is failing, Lord i need u.
Help me overcome these trials, let your will be done.
People are speaking false, deir tongues speaks the untruth,
i dont know what feeling i should be feeling anymore.

the voice within

You can't sleep
Pieces missing everywhere
A restless body cracks over.
Too many voices, cant seem to hie yesterday.
Like the highway that never stops bending,
your all twisted in turns with fate.
And you seek warmth,you yearn for a smile
thats when you begin to wonder
who are my real friends?
Where are you left and where have they gone?
Have they all got the bends??
You break another mirror, another glass,
this time there aint no cuts or blood stains,
The words are coming out all weird
You know you're turning into something you are not,
And You ask yourself "Am I really sinking this low?"
I might be wrong, i might be right,
But never look back though i wont swear,
i saw a light coming over you.

Im a Default

These are the things she never say,
these are things she hide it everyday.
These are the days when she wish she was the one,
God took away instead of you.
These are the days she realize what a default she is.

Unspoken words killing her inside,
feelings she want to feel but cant express.
Trying so hard to be someone you want her to be,
but she fail so much, she is more then imperfect.
These are the moments she realizes she is a default.

The girl with the smile plastered on the face,
the emptiness all building her up, loneliness she never tell.
oh! what a tragedy she is.
Oh! what a default God has beautifully created.
Oh! pity the poor soul, the deafult she has turned out to be.
I am a default.

"I can do all things through Christ who Strengthens me- Philippians 4:13"s

Somedays you would have come to the end of yourself emotionally,
try to make yourself feel better by making worldly materials your main priority.
all those temptations and sins giving you just a momentary happiness,
and when the sun sets you find yourself jaded again, back to your four walls.
This life is as dangerous as it is as blessed and as exciting as it may seem.
Things that make you so happy, things that you focus on so much,
can change and make you feel so alone, so lost and so confused!
You may have many friends but there are somedays when you feel you are all alone,
you have people who love you sincerely but you still feel unloved and uncared.
you have a hurt but no one wants to listen to you,
and thats where you come to the point of not wanting to go ahead anymore!
But remember there is always this one person whose watching over you,
that one person who can give you an everlasting happiness,
that one stranger whose always sitting beside you when you think your all alone,
that one friend who never forgets to pray for you everytime you shed a tear,
that one lover who gave his life to save your soul,
the only one, our only Jesus Christ!
Jesus always loves and cares for you even if you have rejected Him.
will never leave you and always be there to listen to you your whole life.
He loves you no matter what you have done,
What He offers isn't a feeling thats going to come and goes,
his love for you is eternal, an Agape Love!
And somedays you may choose to ignore the love Jesus offers,
but No matter who you are, and what you do, He will never give up on you!
All that hurt you feel or the pain you go through,Jesus has felt the same too.
Maybe not in the same way we have but He has felt hurt greater than ours.
Jesus was so scared when he knew of what was going to happen to him,
he was mocked and hurt, stripped and nailed up on that cross,
But he sacrificed, laying down his life, all just for us, for you and me.
Sometimes your prayers may not be answered,the way you prayed for,
but that doesn't mean he doesn't care for you anymore,
but, He gave it to you because thats what you needed even if you think you don't,
Jesus knows whats laid for you tomorrow and he wants to make it the best for you.
Then you will realize the through love of Christ for you.
For people who believe in him you may wonder sometimes,
how a believer could feel so alone and forsaken,
but being a child of God can intensify your desperation.
The skies of adverity may not clear immediately,but have Faith,
His grace will sustain you,for a christian,wholeness always comes after brokenness.
And for those who have not accepted him yet into you life,
Jesus is always waiting for you, calling out for your name,
only if you would give him a chance and taste the life of being his child.
The best things that come to us are by letting God have his way,
all the tests and trials are ways of God showing his undying love for you.
Im saved and im a believer but i still err like everyone else,
but everyday i try to make myself grow as a better child of God.
I ain't writing this to sound like or trying to be holy and pure christian,
I am not! But just because Jesus Loves me, i want you to feel that love too!
I hope that if anyone is going through anything hardships and struggles,
or lost and confused of not knowing what to do next,be helped by this.
And im sorry if i have offended anyone through my words,
i didn't mean anything to hurt you, but just wanted to share this few thoughts,
as your christian friend.
I pray and i hope this would help, even if its just one person,it will be worth it.
Thank you so much for reading this!
Have faith, hope, pray and live!
Your always Loved.
God Bless you :)

Dear God....

I don't know and i don't care how long it takes, just one change of a heart, thats all!!
im waiting and will wait for your reply.
always and faithfully your child,
me!

Who i am!

Nothing to confess, just this load too heavy to bear,
Try to trace her life out in this puzzled square world.
She hides, she runs, who has to know what she's trying to deny,
Holding everything inside, everyone thinks she has it all.

Voice of regrets in her head, trying to be more than fine,
all these pretence keeps reminding of a lost girl she's turned out to be.
Nobody knows this child, nobody knows how much she hurts but just the one above,
In the end it'll all be over, he has promised.

Im a stranger in this world,a lonely planet deep inside,
sunny i may happen to shine in your eyes,don't mean i don't rain.
My secrets are so dark, its tough somedays to carry on,
But just because of one reason, i try to stay as strong as i can,
be a warrior in this big small world, be the light in your life,
Because of my big man above who gave his life for me,
and now this is my gratefulness for everything he has made me to be,
i will be a lonely soul survivor!

"Love is not a Fight" - Warren Barfield

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
And then commit to never leave
So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word that they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do

Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us, if we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us, but demand we give our all

Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
If we try to leave may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

I would fight for you, would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for.

You

Here on the stage
I'm all alone against the crowd?
Well I'm talking to you
And I'm trying to say is that
Sometimes everything gets so confusing
but still beneath this cloud of confusion,
i still find myself,
I still find the truth
and i found the
Answer with you!

Rain - Patty Griffin

It's hard to listen to a hard hard heart
Beating close to mine
Pounding up against the stone and steel
Walls that I won't climb
Sometimes a hurt is so deep deep deep
You think that you're gonna drown
Sometimes all I can do is weep weep weep
With all this rain falling down

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm holding on underneath this shroud
Rain

Its hard to know when to give up the fight
Two things you want will just never be right
Its never rained like it has to night before
Now I don't wanna beg you baby
For something maybe you could never give
I'm not looking for the rest of your life
I just want another chance to live

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm holding on underneath this shroud
Rain

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm holding on underneath this shroud
Rain

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm still alive underneath this shroud
Rain Rain Rain