~~ JESUS FREAK ~~

"What will people think when they hear that i'm a Jesus freak? What will people do when they find that its true?what will people think,what will people do???? I don't care if they label me a Jesus freak, i don't really care, what else can i say, because there ain't no disguising the truth!"

Because i love Jesus and because i believe that no matter whatever happens... through happiness or sorrow or pain or difficulties, i Believe everything happens for the good, and that even though i maybe wading through the most darkest path of my life, God is just testing my faith and he's working for a better day for me and i tell the same to all those people i care for! And when i tell this to my friends, many of them had smiled at me, i dont kno what they think behind and many of them have even mocked at me and labelled me "Jesus freak"!!! I didn't care and i don't care.....no name can be cooler than being called a Jesus freak:D!!! That's my faith and im never ashamed of Loving My Jesus...for all the blessings he has blessed me with, even if it takes my whole lifetime ill never be enough from saying thank you Jesus!!!

Somedays back i just finished reading a book called "Jesus Freaks- a book filled with stories about those who martyrd their lives, standing up for Jesus. The ultimate Jesus Freaks!

I read it over and over again....every story touched my heart and i found strong and faitthful were all these children of God who sacrificed their lives for his name! Being a christian and being called a child of God i couldn't imagine myself in their position. I felt ashamed!But then i learned too that though, i or even you, may not be called to martyr our lives, we can still martyr our way of lives march to a different beat and let the world see Jesus :)!

Jesus was the non-conformist of all times. He walked the world as the human voice of God.So many people today potray Jesus as weak, the out-of-date artifact hanging on a church wall or in a stained glass window hoping for a brighter day! We live in a world thats now built with pride,greed, materialism and dedication to statusquo. In a world like this that is built in free will instead of God's will, we must be the Freaks!!!!

There are more christian martyrs today than there were in 100 Ad-in the days of the roman empire! According to the world Christian Encyclopadia, there were close to 156,000 christian martyrd around the world in 1998 and another 164,000 estimated to hav been martyrd in 1999! So can you imagine how many must have been martyrd today- 2009???!!!! There are so many still today who are being killed because they proclaim jesus as their King. Pray for them!!!

"Lets us stand together with our brothers and sisters around the world through prayers and faith, because no matter what happens, no matter what i face or how the end may look to be like, we know at the end we will be vitorious. We will inherit Eternity and heaven:)!!

"Remeber the Lord's people who are in the prison and suffering.Never forget them but imagine that you are with them- Hebrews 13:3"

"LET THE PEOPLE THINK AND SAY WHATEVER THEY WANT TO. WE WILL NEVER BE ASHAMED OF YOUR NAME AND YOUR GOSPEL. I CAN DO NOTHING ELSE BECAUSE

IM A JESUS FREAK!!"

"Im a Blessing to the Nations"

This has been the theme for our 5 days of "summer bible school" this year!!! Tomorrow's our final day....its de final celebration......excited at the same time..feeling kinda sad about how fast the days have passed!
I got to be a part of this years team by voluntering in teaching the children! And ive had the most amazing blessed time..taking me back to my childhood days when i used to attend the summer bible school evrytime i come home for vacations:)! Being with the kids...doing the praise and worship, talking about Jesus and the love of God, sharing the gospel together.....i know ive recieved much blessings...and i thank the Lord for letting me to live even today and experience his love all over again!!!

"For all who seek to follow the truth....Taste the Love of Jesus and you'll Know wot true love is all about!! Seek his light...Seek His love.....Let Jesus come and Live in your Life today!!"

God Is GREAT...God IS LOVEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:Silent smile:

They always say "we are all humans no matter how many people surround us we still feel alone sometimes"!!!
and why is tat????
:(
Jesus only knows me!!!!

..Clueless bloggin!!!

What happened i don't know.......but somewhere down the line i'll take the blame! Small things you'll never know that you did it....small things i did to break you, maybe i was wrong...i guess you didn't realize what you had done! We are all humans....mistakes are just another family of ours. All we can do is forgive, forget and love! No matter how much it hurts, i'll say a prayer and i know it for sure, ill be alright! God forgive me if i was the reason for the hurt in your heart....i said a prayer for you too....!
You mean much to me...like a song in my heart! Everyday i pray for blessings on you more than the blessings that i recieve!!! Your one of the reason i pray and i couldn't ask for a better reason than you...a miracle i pray i'll get to witness one day:)!!

Love...God bless your beautiful soul!!!

"WHERE DO I STAND??"

Today while listening to the Pastor's sermon it kind of hit me hard that it made me to think twice more than what i usually do!! "WHERE DO I STAND???"

Well the sermon was taken from the scriptures of Luke chapter 9 verses 51-62 on the cost of following Jesus!
There are three kinds of people living in this life:
a) Those who are very thirsty for God's word
b) Those who are sometimes thirsty and sometimes they aint.
c). Those who are not thirsty at all.

They're so many people around me and us who still lives without Christ in them! They're so lost in the world's idolized atmosphere that they donot realize to remember who their real maker is! They don't even try to know him...or even sit to wonder about how the reason why they're living. Its sad to see them living this way, sad to see them paving their own paths to hell. These are the unthirsty people.......caught up in this artificial world, lost in this hell!
Keep praying for them that they will soon learn to recieve His grace and love!

They're another set of people who are thirsty for Thy word sometimes and sometimes they totally forget about it! These people are worse than even those people who don't know about God, atleast they donot sin in being double faced! These set of people seem to remember God only when they're in trouble and they need safety and protection. They get all religious, fastings after fastings, prayers after prayers, and once the storm is over they seem to forget what the good Lord has done for them! As a believer this is the biggest sin one can ever make.

Last but not the least the third set of people who are olways hungry and thirsty for God's words more and more. No matter whatever road they are in, they're faith never falls, they're hope always keep rising, and these are the faithful children of the Lord! Ever ready to give their life for the good Lord, never falling off from the Lord's sight....Praise God!

Now my friends where do you think do you stand? r u like the first set of people paving your own way to hell, or are u living a life of sin like the second set of people or are you like the third set of people with such faith that even if you die now you believe you'd go to heaven!!!
where do you stand?? see where you stand before its too late....Life is short!

God Bless you all:)!

"mumble-fumble"!

I will be strong......Father help me through this!!
" i can do all things through christ which strengtheneth me" (philippians 4:3)
I cared for someone today with the Love of God...i hope you did the same too!!
God loves us all!!:)

[PS: Reminiscence- II will be continued...]

!!! REMINISCENCE !!!

THE BANDS THAT COMES AND GOES!

"de abstract elephantus B" :D

" Rooted - A"

" My first Design - Gothic bridal wear"

GROUP- C: GEOMETRY CLASS:)

UP IN DE TERRACE ON ONE LATE EVNING =)

HAHAHA- MY VNRT COVER PAGE!!!

**With Love to My Mommy**

To the women who is the epitome of a wonderful life,

I look at you and i feel blessed, you're the perfect image of God's beautiful creation.

You're touch connects the heaven to the earth,the key to joy to celebrate this blessed life.

The lessons that you've taught me, to love - to care - to believe and to hope,

i thank you for without you i couldn't be where i am today.

Your my comforter, my teacher, appreciating and forgiving all in all,

a reason i thank God at every moment, a prayer i always love to pray.

The fruit of Holy spirit is displayed in you, shining like a lamp in the dark.

Like a loving doe and a graceful deer, to the most beautiful of women.

To my mother, the fragrance of my life.

Your always with me in my heart!

I love you always and Jesus loves you much more too!

GOD BLESS YOU!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY:)

"God is Great,God is Good"

Even before i was formed in my mother's womb he knew my name,

Your grace is my guide in every single step of my life.

In him i find my hope, my comforter, my best friend,

I called you and you answered me,my rescuer,my Superhero.

I've learned in laughter and pain, he lighted my darkest hours,

where would my soul be without your amazing grace.

I am not afraid no matter where i am or where i go,

because i have a Father, he will never leave me alone.

Running to the lover of my soul, i live safe in your shelter,

I will never be ashamed of you, all i am is yours.

Everyday i rest in the thought that you are watching over me,

in you i am blessed, in you i put my faith.

Because i believe in Jesus,i found a peace that stills my soul,

Crucified and now risen is the King of heaven who died for me.

I give you my Life, i live for your name,

Everyday i will live to praise your name for all that you have done for me!!

I love you with all of my life, My Lord Jesus!!!

Psalms 71:17-18 ---> " since my youth,O Gd, you have taught me, and to this day i declare your marvelous deeds.Even when i m old and gray,donot forsake me,O God,till i declare your power to the next generation, your might to all who are to come. Amen"

Tiny Little fractures!!

There are somethings i want to write...every word i try my best,

to think of something that would help me express the things i think,

i could be stuck here for a thousand years cos the perfect words never cross my mind!!

Nobody knows me behind these walls standing before me......

i may pretend like im sleeping when my tears start to fall,

you'll never know what you are doing to me,

you made me happier than i'd ever been,

but tonight you did it again, i lost the game with you not again!

Nobody knows the rythmn that my heart plays,

its just me and the walls lying here in the dark,

you're there so far away, and you'll never know what you do to me,

these little fractures you pinch in me, they're small but it hurts more.

Someone had told me to throw the words you promised me,

but i did not, i instead fought and defended you, me and us,

cos i thought they were all wrong and just jealous.

But oh, i was just too convinced and so lost in my coolness,

and now i cant even raise my voice, trying hard to create a new sunshine!

I'm always there and i've always been there for you,

but you never noticed me,you took evrything for granted,

So when tomorrow comes,don't be surprised if you dont find me here.

To think i may never see you ever again, pains my heart,

but all i want is for us to find a easier way own our own,

and i hope you'll remember me sometimes, maybe when the spring rain comes.

I'll make it through,i don't know how,but in the morning i know i'll be fine,

There's nothing you can do, nothing we can change,

i hope you realize now how it hurts to lose someone you had,

someone you never saw standing by your side untill its GONE!

Letter for Whom "RACISM"...is da six most hated word!!!

To,

You!!

Your mean..You were so mean...nothing new about it!! Always critical..always passing comment at me and all of us with these small eyes!! And its not just you...there are many others like you who are like you, who dosent wish to take me or even try to wish to respect me as one of you, as your fellow friend and fellow citizen!!! What can i do if God made me this way, it wasn't some kind of a joke that he played while he was creating ME!!!.

You and i ,you say and think we are different, but i wish so much more that you would realize that what you think is a fool's thinking! We belong to the same Creator if u have forgotten.... he made us different because things look pretty around when you have different varities! We live in the same country, same continent,same planet ,just that we dont live in the same house or that you aint my neighbour. But you...YES YOU----> you are so dumbishly-stupididly-idiotically-ignorantly lost in your own thinkings and perceptions that you dont want to even care to take a look at me as you see yourself in the mirrorven for a fraction of second!!

You make a Big Full NEWS if someone talk about you and your colour or even to those who look like you. You call them "Racist"....you bad mouth them---slash them---strike--pinch--throttle--kill them with your words(if only words could kill:(!)...but hey wait a minute ma'am's and sir's... before you even shout back your annoying-heart killing comments dont you even try to listen to the distant bell ringing and singing "what about you--->YOURSELF"??? How far do you think you are standing from those people whom your trying to slash off for calling you names-- the "racist" thingy!!!!!! Aren't you one of them.......you laugh at me....you call me "chinky-minke"....you dislike me even when you don't know a single shit about me but just my name(I don't even know you too...), you make that face..that very weird face when i pass by....man you look like a joker trying to screw his face.....ill remember to remind you next time you do that again..! All your attention is towards them because they look like you and they talk like you...you judge me just by my outer appearance and you think I'm bad because there are many people who looks like me are bad..but there are people who looks like you who are more worse than people who looks like me!....Your full of drama....your always masked and blinded... sometimes i feel sorry for you!

If i could i could also be as mean as you are to me........i could also try my best to slash-strike-throttle and kill you with my words but i ain't so barbaric or uncultured or heartless or inhuman to be so unkind!!! God has given me a heart , a small heart to love and i want it to grow big and not let it disappear!!!You hate me..please do its alright..tell it to me...just don't go on stabbing me with your words from behind...or from the corners...!!!!! I'm your sister-I'm your brother- I'm the image you see when you stand before the mirror...I'm a part of your family that God has made us to be...its just that i don't look like you....i don't live with you...and you are not my neighbour too!!!!!!! I wish so much and pray that you'll soon realize what I'm wishing for you, a heart to love and respect and accept, to care and understand and realize, a mind of wisdom and a brighter light that can make you see the depth of the hurt that you stab on me with your very unkind words!!

Hey you, i hope you understand a little bit of what i mean to tell you, its alright...i know nothing can change overnight but i wish and pray that you'll change in some years time atleast for the sake of our children who are to come someday after 10 years!!!

God Bless your heart........i mean all Peace to you!

Waiting for a change to come,

your small eyed,

sister-brother-friend-Neighbour

Stranger....wish we never MET!!!!!

You found me.....i said 'hi'...that was all we never spoke but just a smile. Months and months later i thought i should drop in to you and see how my stranger is doing.....we spoke and this time it was more than just a 'hi' and a smile, it was cool!! More than just the 'how are you'' and 'how was your day'.....we started to learn each of our own side's story not realizing the closeness that we were buliding up. Now i'm confused as hell and i'll never figure it out because you've taken my heart away!!! It wasn't me....its your fault...you made me fall for you:(!!! You say you love me but im scared bout the word!!!!!!!! I'm strong,im jaded,im stubborn but i break.......and i wish so much the 'poles end' feeling that im going through! I get scared and i feel like a mess....."hey stranger do you feel the way i do??".

I know you but it aint what i really want to know about......but all i want to know is the real person behind that mask!!! They asked me what am i doing with you...why am i walking on the road that has no horizon.....but i didnt listen because i wanted to give a try......i wanted to make the road beautiful and maybe create a sunny horizon at the end....but i guess i planned way too much...living on my useless imaginations again!!!

So many things i've learnt from you.......a part of me is glad that i said 'hello' to you....a part of me regrets!!! I'm sorry stranger but i think i'll have to go now....one day we will meet again..and maybe than i'll be able to explain to you...every little bit about why i had to do this! I'm not proud, i'm not strong...i'm not weak,im not lost......im just a silly someone!! Thank you is all i can say to you......"Stranger....i wish we never met cos its so hard for me now to take my heart back from you!!"

When Love dont Fall on My side:S!!!

Okayyy...its valentines day again:S....not really the day....deas still two hours left to go for it to be "D-Day"!! Nyways dosent matter to me.....just another normal day for me...(sad)..lol!

Its kinda weird though that i still dont have a boyfriend.....well i Never..... and i dont kno why... i still dont understand!!! But sometimes i guess its all for the best for me....maybe God has something special planned for me..someone special( wherever u are)..hmmmmm...lol!

As the lovers celebrate their lovee....Im going to clebrate singles day wid all my single frens:d.....

go to kfc..order the same old meal hahhaha.....or maybe do some shopping:))!

Nyways...Cheers to all you Lovers.....Cheers to myself for being single even when im already 21:D.........God Bless!!

Happy Valentines day!! :))

StEaL mY SunShInE!!!!

"Summer has already kissed me with its first sunrays,

sipping coffee in the cafeteria....i watch pretty birds sit by the window,

feels like they are telling me not to worry,

that its alright to feel like nothing's going right...

because even God feels that way too.

Lonely and tired even though there's many friends around,

lying on the green grass...you stare at the blue sky,

'relax' ...a silent voice whispers in your ear,

its okay to feel afraid sometimes,

God knows each step that you take.

Seasons change....so does everything including you and i,

You show you are strong by hiding that agony behind,

but than why do you cry yourself to sleep at night?

dont you ever think that your all alone...

God cares for every soul that cries.

Sweet summer wind blow through the open window,

singing to me to leave tomorrow's cares alone....

run out and enjoy the present joys....

nothing will steal my sunshine......

even when summer leaves....God's sunshine will always be upon you!!

Beginning from the End!!

"Maybe you're at the point of not wanting to go.

Coming to the end of yourself emotionally...

could be the most painful experience you've ever encountered.

Don't give up but take courage...it'll all be alrite very soon.

Even when you are obedient to the Lord...you are put to test.

You wonder how a believer could feel so alone and forsaken,

being a child of God intensifies your desperation.

The skies of adverity may not clear immediately...

but have Faith his grace will sustain you,

for a christian,wholeness always comes after brokenness.

The best things that come to us are by letting God have his way,

all the tests and trials are way's of God showing his undying love for you.

Cling to the Lord in faith..God can use this kind of "beginning from the end"!

Though you're broken still smile and sing along.....

Sometime ...sometime we'll understand!!.....